下决心...

在这次的旅行中，我想通了...
我不应该再对你有任何思念...
虽然在海滩的时候，
我多么想你在我身边...
可是...你却不在...
我还捡了一个像心形的珊瑚...
我却不能把它交给你...
你们一直在我面前提起她，
我依然微笑带过...
其实我心里是多么痛苦...
我这次真的想忘了她...
重新过我的生活...
不管以后你会不会再出现在我眼前都好，
我都会当你是普通朋友...

请你离开...
就当这一切都是梦一场...

厌倦...

虽然说住在城市里的人有轻微的忧郁症是正常的...
但，我感觉自己一天比一天还要更忧郁...
活了19年的我...
已经厌倦了生活...
每天都要面对相同的问题...
第一题还没解完，又有新的问题...
我已经不懂如何是好...




如果我有用不完的钱...
那该多好...

命运...

也许这就是命运...
“天”都要我忘记她...
今早我在把我的手机格式化时，
竟然忘了把朋友的电话号码给储个备份...
连她的也是...
当我察觉到时已经太迟了...
已经救不会了...
后悔？
有用吗？

现在心情不怎么好...
连外面都在下雨...
顿时感到心无力了...
好想喝酒，
好想找人，
好想淋雨...


真的很想回到今天早上....

倒数中...

一天又一天地倒数中了...
已剩下7次了...
怎么了？不舍得吗？
不舍得又如何？
我想在最后一天...
也只能默默地看着你离开...
心里默默地说声再见...
下一次再见不知是几时了...
1年？2年？10年？
还是我永远都没法再见到你了...
只能在面子书看看你的近况...
我会把你所对我说过的话都收藏为回忆...
我永远无法忘掉你那灿烂的笑容><...
也许你只是我生命中路过的一辆高级跑车...
你只是吸引了我...
但你并没有停下来让我上车...
你也很快速地往前了...
我赶不上你的生命的节奏...
离我越来越远了...
我相信总有一天会有一辆愿意停下来让我上车的车...

再见了........

谢谢

谢谢你们帮我庆祝生日...
除了感谢还是感谢...
今天再完美都是有一些缺陷...


因为你不知道在我的手机里面存的都是你的信息 不开心时，看着看着，不自觉的傻笑 仿佛此时你就在身边
我很爱你，但是我知道，最后我们不会在一起

我很爱你，但是我知道，最后我们不会在一起
因为我会很早很早就开始为你准备生日礼物，虽然最后没有送到你手上，但是你会记得我的生日吗？

每当...

有很多东西总是让我想起你...
每当我听到这首歌
我脑海出现的不是那位原唱者
而是你...
每当我看见这种颜色或是其它的东西（不方便透漏）
我都会第一时间想起你...
我是有病吗？...

我想我应该再考完试后,
去散心...
把我在这个学校所有的伤心事全都忘了...
但...
我想我办不到...
我持终忘不了你...
你真的有这么难忘吗？

取消资格

我有资格说爱你吗...
为什么开心的时间总是来去匆匆...
其实每次开心的时候
我已经在倒数伤心的来临了
有这一天我并不出奇...
为什么我会陷入这令人疲惫的游戏...
就因为这几张白痴照片（酒吧）...
我想，
今晚我又开始会失眠了...
你有这么难忘吗？


我想只有酒能陪伴我...

喝醉

偶尔放纵自己喝醉，是很解脱的一件事...
尤其是你在感情上有太多的遗憾或是很大压力之下...
在醉的时候，感觉是么东西都是真的...
醉后，我才发觉我并没有放下这一切...
现实中的我是多么的虚伪...
我的笑容想要去伪装，
我的泪却想投降，
我的眼光想要去躲藏，
我的嘴还在逞强。
好想好好爱一场，却总说无所谓。
醉了才觉得这个世界我就是主角，所有一切我做主。
醒来了，才发现我并不是主角，
但是我每天必须登场，忙碌地奔波，却是一个小丑。
生活为什么，爱情为什么，让人很乱，永远那么不清晰，
只知道活着就要工作，爱着就要付出。




*只是心情不好才喝酒*

*很想找个人谈天*

不想了？

每晚...我都不懂为何
自然而然的想起了你...
直到睡着了...
我的梦，自然也有你的出现...
你和我，
在我的梦里，牵起了手...
感觉很幸福...
我也懂梦也有发完的一刻...
醒来后，
我看着自己的手...
牵的不是你的手，而是玩偶的...
每天看的不是你本人，只是照片...
真的想脱离这种痛苦...
还有2个月，熬过去吧...
要考试了，不要在胡思乱想了...

有一种感觉比失恋还要痛苦

有一种感觉比失恋还要痛苦...叫做自作多情
让我想到此时的我...
经常会听到别人说不相信爱情，然而为什么我还是那么的执著，固执得让人头疼。
突然间，所有的事情，都变成了两件，与你有关，或者与你无关。
强迫自己不跟你联系，忽略你的存在，
用简单而乏味的事情填满所有的时间，
只为能够暂时的忘记你就好。
总是不肯绝望，不愿放弃，
总幻想着，你对我多多少少还会有一丝真心吧，
于是努力的让自己变成另外一番模样，
努力的用一种最轻松不会为你带来压力的方式来面对你…
而你却还是远远的，不愿给我一句肯定以你为中心，
美丽的几何体圈住了一切，却没有你的心…
真的好想你，无助的想念
我的痛，只有我自己懂

一封写给“...”的信

致：“...”

我不肯定你能看到这篇文章...但我还是要写。

我知道我这个人没什么优点，也不优秀，不帅，也没有钱...但是我有一颗对你真诚的心。不过我也懂自己的资质...我完全是癞蛤蟆想吃天鹅肉。虽然朋友都说没什么事情是不可能的，但我懂这只是安慰我的话。平民与公主，美女与野兽，这些都只能在电影/偶像剧和童话故事才出现...

我懂人都是现实的，不帅就算了...而且什么都没有，钱又没，功课一塌糊涂。我懂我是配不上你的，所以我只能放弃你...不过我只是放弃你，并没有放弃爱你。我朋友整天都说服我去告白，我懂我一定会从你手上拿张好人卡...不！是“丑人卡”...

我现在能做的事是祝福你在就来到的考试上拿到好成绩，我想我只能在某个角落默默地观察你......


“...”的来源是某国的语言翻译的...发音和你的名有点相识...

不舒服...

这几天总是感觉怪怪地...
坐立不安...
心里总是感觉到闷闷不乐...
又不是生病...
唉...
到底是怎么了...
因该时压力大吧...
不要担心这样担心那样了...
这样下去迟早患上忧郁症...==
要保持开心
永远晴朗♥

GAMES 2010

GAMES 2010

Games, Animation and Multimedia Entertainment Showcase (GAMES) 2010 is an event aiming to create awareness of the local games industry, regardless board games or video games, to all Malaysians. This event is a platform for game companies in Malaysia to exhibit their latest products and independent game developers to exhibit their masterpiece. It is also a gateway to individuals who are interested to involve themselves in the game industry in the future.
Events Details:
Entry: OPEN TO PUBLIC
Date: 7th - 9th October 2010
Location: APIIT/UCTI, Technology Park Malaysia, Bukit Jalil, Kuala Lumpur.
*Map will be provided at the bottom of the post.
Time: Thursday - 9am - 7.00pm
Friday - 9am - 7.00pm
Saturday - 9am - 7.00pm
Event’s Itinerary

Thursday - Games Exhibition
- Cosplay Competition
Friday - Indie Garage
Saturday - Games Development Talks
Contact Us for Further Inquiry
APIIT/UCTI
Technology Park Malaysia
Bukit Jalil, 57000 Kuala Lumpur
Malaysia
Tel: 016-4310061(Jason Tan) / 012-2441979 (Nicholas Choy)
Email: Jason-cytan@live.com.my / nicholaschoywh@gmail.com
Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=142078192495428
Website: http://www.wix.com/gamesE/GAMES
Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/home.php?sk=lf#!/group.php?gid=113555222033398&v=wall&ref=ts
Ways to go to APIIT/UCTI.

By LRT




By Bus
RapidKL: T418, U71
*Info will be update soon.

##More content will be updated soon.

雨天...

本以为已经忘了你,可是在这雨天,我又禁不住想起来你...
那种思念是来自内心深处,没有一点儿的虚情假意...
尽管我叫自己不要去想你,可是还是不受控制的想念你了...
每次下起大雨...
不禁让我想起了那天发生的事...
想你想的不会在想了,
想你想的心都会痛,
想你想的我没有了自我.
我承认,
我失败了,
我的心失败了,
我完全的被你控制了,
可是,你又在哪里呢.....

Flopped

Flopped!flopped!flopped!
Wl...you are just a mr.flopped...
You have never done something tht gives ur parent or ur fren to proud on it...
Never!
You dont have any merit...
You wont get any attraction from ppl...
so mr substitution pls shut up...

if i has to choose between loving you, and breathing. I would use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU.

转角

今天我又再一次的经过这个转角...
虽然这只是个普通的转角...
每天都有很多人在行走...
可是对我而言确实印象深刻...
在这个转角，发生了某些东西...
那是第一次...
极大可能是最后一次了...
这些琐碎的东西也许只有我会记得...
但，这些琐碎的东西是你我之间唯一的回忆...
有时候执着是一种重负或一种伤害，放弃却是一种美丽...
全世界我也可以忘记，只是不愿意失去你的消息，我会带着回忆爱你，傻傻爱你，不去计较公平不公平...



你是怎样了...为什么...

真的？

我真的看错你了...
如果这是真的，我不会再对你依恋...
为什么?
江山易改，本性难移...
我真的希望是假的...
你竟然对我朋友做出那样的行为...
朋友，在我心目中是永远第一...
我不能原谅对不起我朋友的人包括你...
我真的不希望是真的...
我会查出真相...

怕...

好人真的没有好报吗？
我越来越怕了...
如果我真的变成回忆...
会怎样呢...

朋友，我会为您祈祷...
您一定没事的...
要记得有很多人在支持您...
不要放弃...
我们不会想念您因为我们相信你不会离开我们...


祝福...

Dead day...

*sigh*
*sigh*
Today my AS result come our ady...
SUCKS!!!
Have to retake all the 3 subs...
Well,all I can say is continue to do my best...
Following 2 mth:No games,No outing so much,No fooling around like a dumb ass...
*sigh*
Look on the positive side,at least I improve on my exam result compare to trial which failed all...
Cheer ya every1 =)...


Err,when I din notice you all talking to me pls forgive me...
Coz sometimes I really thinking bout sumthing else and do not pay attention to ppl who talks to me =)...
I will talk to every1,wont ignored every1...paiseh~XP

Crisis...zzz

zzz...having financial crisis again T.T
Is just the 2nd day of august and need to be otaku for the whole month...
Oh well,this whole month I will stop spending money on different thing...
I think I can survive...T.T

How many nights I have been suffered from insomnia...haiz...
Well,to cure it...
Firstly I think is to avoid something...zzz
Tell myself that she is invisible...zzz
Tell myself that I did not fallen for her...zzz
Well..."SEORORO" pls take care...
I always be the elf around you...


什都不要懂,只想继续做梦
因为害怕醒来以后再也握不住你的手...zzz

Stress...

Stress has seeped into our daily vocabulary as often as ur favourite latte...
There are good stress and bad stress...
Good stress:motivation
Bad stress:can cause physical and mentally problem to us
Chronic fatigue,insomnia,gastric...
Well,I admit i having all this symptoms of being stress...
Blood pressure rises...zzz
Oh well,I read an article bout stress...
One of the solution--->If someone consistently causes stress in ur life,simply stop seeing them....lol~...zzz


STRESS!!!!

Well,my mom order me to save money as my parent is planning for year end holiday trip...zzz
Either korea or sentosa island....lol

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized...
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush?
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do

Well,my fren post the phrase below on my wall:
beautiful girls all over the TARC U could be chasing and ur time would be granted they got somehin' on you baby some' on you baby they might say hi and u might say hey and you should be worry about what they say cause they got somethin' on you baby somehin' on you baby

everywhere u go u always hearing her name (name, name)and no matter where u r at girl you make u wanna sang (sang,sang)whether a bus or a plane or a car or a train no other girls on your brain and ''HER'' the one to blame...LOL!!!!

zzz....

Well,who knows?
1st time does not make sense 2nd time does not make sense but 3rd time,4th time and so on does it make sense?

你我之间

虽然我和你之间的回忆不多..
一只手都数得完...
但，每一个回忆我都会记得...
我会记得那个转角，课室，食堂，学堂...
在这些地方,
都曾经发生过一些美好的回忆...
剩下的日子不多了...
见到你的日子也正在倒数了...
我会默默，默默地祝福你...

我不想懂真相...
也不想为真相而痛...

When I See U Smile
And I Know
That Is Not For Me,
That Is When I Will Miss U The Most....
I Know It Was Fake,
I Know U Guys Is Just Giving Me Boost Of Self-Confidence Only Say It....
The weirdest thing happened on the other morning
I woke up with tears in my eyes and rolling down my cheek
and i knew i must have been dream of you again...

我只想看着你...
不管用任何距离...
你听见我那不安的心跳吗？
不用回答我，
只需给我一个微笑...

不同的角度

做人应该懂得从不同的角度去看待一些事物...
当我们换个角度去想一想...
很多事情都会不一样...
你会有更大的包容...
也会有更多的爱...
不要整天都往坏的方面去想...
有些事情并不是你想象中复杂...

我是怎么了...
心情有如天气般...
变幻莫测...




是真的吗？我该相信吗？也许...只是偶然...

明白了...

终于明白为什么有些人会想不开而去死...
也许你们会说这种行为很愚蠢...
但，试想下...
一个人如果离开了...
烦恼全都没了啊...
不用为了解决烦恼而烦恼...
如果有天我真的想不开而离开了你们...
抱歉...
也不用为我感到悲哀...
我不值得你们去悲哀...



If the person you love is not with you,
Wherever you go in the world...
Is a lonely island...

Sensitive...

Alright,now everyone say i'm too sensitive...
Well,I dont care anything now...
I ored let you guys know the thing you want to noe when we having movie just now....
So,dont spread it like disease pls...



They just nothing on you....

Whatever...

1 more test paper to go-->a.math
Does it count as a test?lol
Whatever...

I ain't a clown for u ppl...
But if u guys wan to laugh...
Is up to you...
Want to make fun of me...
Is also up to you ppl...
Is it true or I'm too sensitive?
Whatever...

WHATEVER!!!I DONT CARE!!!!

付出...

当爱给了你，我不会收回...
就算你不知道我爱你...
我也会距续的为你付出，
因为爱上你的那一刻，是美妙的...
我知道我只能在你身旁当你的守护精灵...
你不知道我在想你，是因为你不爱我，我明明知道你不想我，却还爱你...
是不是因为我太傻...
也许有时候，逃避不是因为害怕去面对什么，而是在等待什么...
有些事，我们明知道是错的，也要去坚持，因为不甘心；
有些人，我们明知道是爱的，也要去放弃，因为没结局；
有时候，我们明知道没路了，却还在前行，因为习惯了...
我一个人，还能坚持多久，还要寂寞多久,还需要等待多久...
为什么每次电话响起都不是你?...
世界上最远的距离
不是我站在你的面前
你却不知道我爱你
而是爱到痴迷
却不能说我爱你


感觉很不自在,好像有不好的东西将发生在我身上...无奈，希望那不好的东西是不关于她的...其他的都不重要...

爱，有时候是一种错觉...

翻阅她的人生履历，追寻着她的足迹，感受着她的喜怒哀乐，并为着她的开心而开心，为着她的忧郁而忧郁。
你以为这就是爱了...
读她的文字，欣赏着她的才气，喜欢听她的言谈欢笑，喜欢贴近她的感觉，甚至为着她愿意与你说话，而欣喜异常。
你以为这就是爱了...
不可否认，的确对她动情动心了...
心动有了一点...
你会去关注与他有关的所有信息...
她的笑容，她的模样，她的一举一动，她的一言一语，她的喜好，她的生活，她所在的城市...
你会期待她的出现...
等待她的问候...
盼望她的关怀...
有了这些，自信多了一点...
快乐多了一点...
心动的弦能演奏乐曲...
这些都可能只是错觉...
爱的错觉是一场爱的作秀...
爱源于一种感觉，这感觉有些像海市蜃楼，美则美已，却太虚幻...
暗恋很美同时也令人非常苦恼，它是一把锁，如果没有钥匙的救赎，却只能自我封闭...
一颗单纯痴情的心在悄悄等待。这暗恋的种子一旦生根，加上外界环境的诸多因素必然发芽...
而自己却无法扼制其繁茂...
我想暗恋这东西一定是生活的捉弄...


这个路口我一辈子都记得...
我停下来，你却走了...

梦...

梦，
是即将发生的事吗？
我即想这天的来临，却又害怕这天的来临...
如果这天真的来了(机会极小)...
我会得到某些东西，也失去了某些东西...
所以这天好不好来临呢...
不知道从什么时候起，你已经悄悄的停留在我的心里，
一点甜蜜，一点惊喜，我努力装作不在乎你，
只把你偷偷的埋藏在我的心底，
因为我不想告诉你，我很想你，这距离，是忧伤？是神秘？是美丽？
爱你，想你，到痴迷，而你却毫不在意，仿佛我从未走进你的心里；思你，念你，到流下泪滴，而你却似乎并不珍惜...




默默地关注一个人，正在静静地期盼一份可能永远也不会降临的感情.....

暗恋

我常觉得这个世界最真挚，最洁净，也是最让人心酸的感情...
那就是暗恋...
默默地关注一个人，静静地期盼一份可能永远也不会降临的感情...
不想让对方知道，也不想对世人公布...
世界上最远的距离就是我站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你...
暗恋的一方不说，也许是不想说，也许是不能说。
因为有一种东西，一旦被说出口就不再美丽了...
也许暗恋者有强烈的自尊和自卑，怕遭受伤害，怕一旦爱恋不成，连朋友都做不成了。
暗恋者生活在虚拟的月光下，陶醉在想象的云彩里，痛苦着自己的痛苦，孤独着自己的孤独...
他们几个月、几年、甚至十几年地爱着一个人，独自品尝着无人回应的空洞。

Exam again?

Oh hell ya!!!
Exam again...==lll
World cup not yet end ady nid to prepare it...
World cup still left 4 matches~
2 semi-final match and 1 third place playoff
and of coz the finals~
Support the netherlands till the end XD~

Start from now i will not care anything
I will follow advice from my fren,alex...
thx,dude XP~


And another thing,Got any1 else wan acc me go find german world cup kit?
Their away kit very nice~

Crazy?Stupid?Unlucky? day

Oh well,I guess I'm having the craziest,stupiest,unluckiest day...
Early in the morning ady done a stupid reaction...
I will not try to overreact again =.=lll
second thing,
I will just said that dont tell eveyone bout ur secret...
Keep it in your heart forever...
If you tell someone else...
You do no when will it burst out...
Although everyone say keep something inside heart is no good...
Must share it with fren...
But...now I dont think so...
Start from now,I wont tell any secret of myself to anyone...

And final thing...
Mom,Dad...
I not in a relationship...
Your son is still single...
What make u 2 think that I'm in a relationship?...=.=
That key chain is I buy for myself not from a girl...
I buy for fun k?...==


You r my only fire extinguisher for now...

听见了吗？

我只想看着你，用任何距离...
非常安静，飘过一片云...
你的关心，变成灰色墙壁...
我没能力，抵挡攻击...

让如何告诉你，我的心情...
我还想陪着你，任何天气...
我还粉望，可以传达给你...
唱给你听，在秋天里～

那你听见了吗，我不安的心脏...
听见了吗，要送给你的花...
我所有能量，只能让这首歌与你分享...
听见了吗，你在想着谁吧...
听见了吗，我拥有的快乐...悲伤...
不用回答，你听见了吗...
不用回答，给我一个微笑...


你听见了吗？
无论他们把你形容得怎样...
我都不会信...
你听见了吗？

偶像？

我不是当她是偶像...
只是...不知怎么讲...
你们还把她形容到像只恶魔...
不是这样的...
不是！不是！

这一刻...

这一刻永远都烙印在我脑海...
永远都会成为我脑中的背景...
虽然只是短短的一秒...

夜深了...

夜深了...
看着你的照片...
回想你和我之间的回忆...
虽然不多...
但...
对我来说已经很足够...
我一直都期待“...”会出现在来电显示...
或是讯息...
不过你应该不懂我有你的号码吧...


我会一直等待...期待着...

=D

微笑...
对生活是一种态度...
一个人的情绪受环境的影响，这是很正常的...
但你苦着脸，一副苦大仇深的样子，对处境并不会有任何的改变...
相反，如果微笑着去生活，那会增加亲和力，别人更乐于跟你交往，得到的机会也会更多...
清者自清，浊者自浊...
有时候过多的解释、争执是没有必要的...
对于那些无理取闹、蓄意诋毁的人，给他一个微笑，剩下的事就让时间去证明好了...
微笑总是能带过一切...
微笑是人生最好的名片，谁不希望跟一个乐观向上的人交朋友呢？
微笑能给自己一种信心，也能给别人一种信心，从而更好地激发潜能...
微笑是一种修养，并且是一种很重要的修养...
微笑的实质是亲切，是鼓励，是温馨...
真正懂得微笑的人，总是容易获得比别人更多的机会，总是容易取得成功...
那我更应该时常微笑了~


脑袋里总是有着熟悉的回音...虽然不多...

过去...

过去的东西就让它过去吧...
人谁无过...
每个人都有过去...
以前犯错...
不代表现在不会改变...
就算现在回忆过去...
也是历史了...
有些人是不会去介意你的过去...
只会珍惜现在的你...
哪怕在犯错...
至少也曾经珍惜过一样东西...




爸，父亲节快乐...
我是个不会用行动去表达我的心意的傻孩子...
我只会用写出来...口却紧紧地封住...
无论如何，祝你身体健康...晚上再陪您看球吧 XD

知己？

虽然你被大多数人排挤...
但今天我看见你有悲哀的一面...
一开始我没想到你会告诉我你的秘密...
经过你一番的苦诉...
我明白了...
爱上了一个人却没办法在一起...
我懂你的心情...
这是一种很痛苦的感受...我明白
我也开始懂为什么你会一个坐了...
原来是要避开一切...
放心吧，我不会说出你的秘密...
我懂一个人的秘密若被传出去的感受...
我也是过来人...
无论如何，祝你幸运...
我会好好保密...

世杯期间...

世杯期间=我的生病时间 TT
每晚看球看到凌晨4~5 点
下午才醒来
谁受得了啊~
铁人都会垮...
终于在今天发烧了....加上喉咙发炎~
但还是继续看球 ><...
没去看医生~哈哈~
过多几天就没事的瓜...
我还得去健身呢...
要把手臂练粗，为了要让你好躺一些...
无论到最后是否是大团圆结局...
我都会继续...
所以一定要复原...



在现实中，你们有看过野兽会打赢的吗？><...

越陷越深

我的计划全盘失败...
我已经越陷越深了...
你...
还是比我爱她...
而且多我很多倍...
试问，我哪里还有资格继续下去...
你比我更有资格...
我不想那么多人受到伤害...
我一人就够了...
这不是伟大还是不伟大的关系...
这种东西总需要一个人去牺牲啊...
我只能说...我不配...

我是个SOSO的男生

我高高的...但是"瘦瘦"的
腰"细细"的...脸"小小"的
遇见你了,是我喜欢的人
不知道你会不会讨厌 我没有什么

我把手臂练粗了
只为了让你好躺一些
我把真心练壮了
只为了背着你奔跑不会累
我是一个"瘦瘦"的男生
只是一个"渺小"的男生
不知道你是否能看见
我爱你的那一面
我是一个"瘦瘦"的男生
一直等待你的人
如果我不是你选择
没关系 我只是个SOSO的男生

我"高高"的...但是"瘦瘦"的
腰"细细"的...脸"小小"的
一直以来,我最喜欢的人
不知道你会不会讨厌 我没有什么
我把手臂练粗了
只为了让你好躺一些
我把真心练壮了
只为了背着你奔跑不会累
我是一个"瘦瘦"的男生
只是一个"渺小"的男生
不知道你是否能看见
我爱你的那一面
我是一个"瘦瘦"的男生
一直等待你的人
如果我不是你选择 没关系
我只是个SOSO的男生

我是一个"瘦瘦"的男生
只是一个渺"小"的男生
不知道你是否能看见
我爱你的那一面
我是一个"瘦瘦"的男生
一直等待你的人
如果你选择了我
因为你 我不是个SOSO的男生...


这首歌是来自张克帆的歌...
也许这首歌是在描述我...
我把手臂练粗了,只为了让你好躺一些...
我不懂我是否做出正确的行动...
我不应该问...
我感觉上好像在帮人，而不是帮自己...
我真的要这样伟大吗？
成全他人吗？
我只有两种选项
其中一项会带来很大的问题...
很多人会受伤...
二...只有一人受伤...
那就是我...
牺牲小我，完成他人的梦想？

Tired~

Yesh~Is world cup period...
duration=1 month...
Which mean I sleep 4.30am everyday...
That is reason I look tired these day...
The team i support drew last night to USA...shit*
England keeper is reli bad...
But another team i support is korea...
They won 2-0...JS.park,manutd midfield score 1 of them~XD~

There is 1 more week for me to slip till 12noon
Finish this week college restart but world cup not yet end...
I 100% confirm everyday sleep inside class...@@

Gud luck~XD...

I have taken sumthing...but duno is it useful...
if is it useful,I also duno i dare to use it anot...@@
Gambahteh bah WL....^^


26days...30days...13days...

I Miss It Badly...

Suddenly I have a feeling...
I miss my primary and secondary school life badly...
I wan to go back to those time...
Is stress-free...

During primary school life...
I still remember every thing happens during that time...
We use plastic bottle to play as football during every recess time...
Although u all might be think is childish,but is fun when you play with your friends...
I miss my teachers there especially 许老师...
You scold me alot,scold me bout my hand-writting...
Gave me a nickname of "doctor" lai...
But you teach me alot...You just want me to be good thats why you scold me...
My primary friends,
I'm glad that we are still in contact...

During secondary school life...
Wow,I miss their crazy behaviour...haha
We hang out alot...
We play alot...
Skip class,do crazy things...since it is a boy school...
Having camp with prefects and scouts...
Best memories in my life...

Now,college life...
Everyday stress...make important decision...
Well,I hate it...
College have girls...not like my secondary school...
When i saw girls,I felt awkward...==lll
Feel shy....Face always red like a tomato...

I miss my life,
there are 2 person I miss the most...
My grandmom(mom side) and my grandpa(father side)
My grandmom pass away during my UPSR exam...
Is a sad news for me...
She used to take care of me during baby since my parents have to work...
I remember during I'm small,I'm a crying kid...
She used to threaten me that if you cry again your "bird" will fly away...
Since that I stop crying and learn to be a man...
She protect me whenever I do something wrong...
When she passed away I din cry...i know she wont wan to see me crying...
I hold back my tears...할머니....saranghae ^^

My grandpa left me during CNY on my PMR year...TT
He care me alot...although we not often see each other...
He stay at melacca...So everytime I visit him...
He smile alot...
Now I miss it...할아버지...saranghae...

I know they will bless for me...and i need to work harder...


I miss you all...saranghae

爱~

什么是爱？

爱是承诺...

爱是自私的...

爱是用不过期的...

爱是用尽全力地去保护自己心爱的人...

爱的力量会让人做出难以置信的事情...

爱的力量会让人做出自己做不出的事情...

喜欢一个人就要勇敢的说出来，不要等到最后才来后悔...

爱上一个人如此的甜蜜又让人受伤害
放弃一个人如此的的难过又让人心碎

爱情就像糖果，小小粒的...
我们不懂什么时候吃完，就像感情一样...
有的时候就要把握，要不然就像糖果一样不声不响就消失了...

爱上一个人是幸福的，也是辛苦的....

喜欢上一个人，你会时时刻刻地想着他/她...保护他/她...

情侣之间不应该有“不相信”这三个字...

相信是情侣之间最重要的...

相信彼此会让情侣之间的感情越来越甜蜜....

被爱是幸福的...

值得吗？

为了某样东西而去减肥，健身...
值得吗？
为了某样东西，无论肌肉拉伤了还是继续健身...
值得吗？
为了某样东西，而牺牲了友情...
值得吗？
你确定到最后一定会有收获吗？
是在做着笨蛋的行为吗？
头脑已不清醒了...
做不出正确的决定...
有人说值得，有人却说一点都不值得...
这样的一个东西不需要做出这样的牺牲...
要知道是否值得时间将会证明一切...

我只想...

我什么都不想要了...
我只想平静地过完最后的半年...
过了这半年，我想...
我应该不能在见到她吧？
我只想好好地把书念完...
朝向我的理想前进...

人与人,
热闹不过人看人,
着急不过人等人,
难受不过人想人,
温暖不过人帮人,
感动不过人疼人,
残酷不过人害人,
阴险不过人算人,
郁闷不过人气人,
耻辱不过人戏人,
为难不过人求人,
生气不过人比人,
和谐不过人让人,
幸福不过人爱人!




“你”的笑容是我永远的推动力....

我知道

我知道我的态度已经开始变了...
但这是我的最后决定了...
但，如果我的态度变本加厉了...
麻烦你们跟我说声...
尤其是你们两位...
XX小姐与XX先生...
麻烦跟我说声...
我不会生气...
我只想两全其美...
希望你们能明白...
我只想同一时间拥有两样东西

我知道我很自私...
只会顾自己的私事...
很抱歉...
我真的很希望你们还能把我当朋友...

有时...我会笨笨的想...
如果有一天我意外地离开这个世界...
会是怎样的？身边的人会庆祝还是为我难过呢？
很怕我会一时想不开...




夜深了我该怎么办...心中的秘密永远无法向亲友苦诉...

一棵开花的树

如何让你遇见我
在我最美丽的时刻

为这
我已在佛前求了五百年
求佛让我们结一段尘缘
佛於是把我化做一棵树
长在你必经的路旁

阳光下
慎重地开满了花
朵朵都是我前世的盼望

当你走近
请你细听
那颤抖的叶
是我等待的热情

而当你终於无视地走过
在你身後落了一地的花瓣
朋友啊
那不是花瓣
那是我凋零的心


有没有感到这段有点熟悉感呢？
相信如果大家有看海派甜心的话，就懂了
没错，就是宝珠姐在戏里念的一段...


有一个人，你一上线就会去看她在不在
不在就一阵失落...在，又不敢打扰

有一个人，你在线只是在等她
而她的头像却不会在你的MSN里抖动

有一个人，你总是忍不住去看她的空间
即使她什么新鲜事都没有


那个人是谁哦...好傻好天真...

无论如何

还剩下三张了...
无论如何都要尽最大能力去考完...
虽然其中一科下学期不要学了
但还是要做出最大的努力

无论如何，
看你是一种享受，
爱你是一种幸福，
念你是一种习惯，
想你是一种快乐，
等你是一种考验...

我有眼睛
却不能随时看见你的身影
我有耳朵
却不能随时听见你的呼吸
我有双手
却不能随时紧紧的抱着你
但我有一颗心
随时随地都可以想你
牵挂你的人是我

想见你
却是经常在梦里，
想说爱你
却只能在心里
此时此刻
真的好想你....

这段是我从面子书看到的觉得很有意思....




一路上有你，苦一点也愿意...就算是上辈子我欠你的....

改变自己？

唉，好想改变下自己
形象？态度？
两样都要吧...
形象要怎样改呢？
去健身？哈哈~
学会打扮？
改变形象之前
应该是要改掉坏习惯和我的态度吧...
坏习惯多得很...
态度？
首先戒掉害羞的形象
这是最最重要
二，不要什么都怕了...
好胆小..
这应该和我没自信有点关联...
唉，算了
我就尽量改吧...


04535...

最近...

唉...最近情绪好不稳定
开心，伤心，开心，伤心..
好像天天在换...
我的心情是在做值日吗？
在轮换？...
当我开心时，隔天就必定伤心...
唉...到底是在发生什么事...
为什么天平座就是这样...
不会做出抉择...
从来没有方向感...
我看起来很可靠吗？
我不这么认为...
我看起来只像个傻里傻气的孩子
妳...又是怎么看我呢？02825



04551....20475

别再为她流泪

别再为她流泪了
今天主角不是我，而是我两位朋友
XX与XX...名字不方便透漏
都已经过去了，就让它过去吧...
哭下去也不是办法
勇敢站起来吧
看见你们这样...我真的很担心
我想看到以前的你们

别再为她流泪了好吗？

我知道你们也许要一点时间来忘记这一切
哭过就好了...知道吗？




困扰的抉择....友情？爱情？

累了

累了总比泪了好
还有7张纸还没考完
我已经多东西做到要垮了
好想休息哦
我快崩溃了
累了，不屑了，也不想写了



只想X'你'

好想...

好想对你说我X你
好想听见你的声音
好想看见你的笑容
好想照顾你
好想与你编制我们生活的另一页
好多好想对你付出的一切
因为我只想X你
我不懂你对我的想法是怎样
我真的不懂何时该前进，何时该退后
想你有时会缺氧
脸红呼吸不正常
这是不是幸福的症状





我是不是听错了？？？....

Rest day

Today is my self-declared rest day~lol
I'm really exhausted after just 2 papers...==
Which is pure math and bio paper 2...
Bio practical test is up next
I'm looking forward toward it~woo~
Tomorrow start studying back after 1 day rest TT
Really hope this exam end as soon as possible
Is really suffering

I still waiting for my girl's generation and kara album...
So long ady...
I miss it...haha~XD
Planning to go "wet" with my secondary fren after exam haha~
woo~



If i'm having a nightmare,i would like to have nightmare of u

自信

自信对一个害羞，没信心的人来说是很重要
今天是我考试以来最有自信的一次
这并不代表我一定拿高分
就考到最爽的一次
希望我的自信会继续下去
我会继续努力
且会谦虚
文良，加油！！
把你的自信心都显出来~
没有任何事情能难倒你的
你都要一一解决它~
不要在给人看低

战争

长达一个月的战争终于开始了
今天是第一天
我应该算是会做吧
至少比上次好很多很多
有做一点练习的我果然不同><...
哈哈~开玩笑的啦~我哪有那么聪明 ><....
还有很多的进步空间~
明天休战
后天才继续战争...
Bio...
只要背好重点就行了吧...
要从我脑中删除数学
输入Bio重点~




“你”总是在我视线范围出现~><...

天秤座的我

天秤座的我
总是拿不定主意，这是我最讨厌我自己的地方
总是犹豫不决
连吃东西都要看好久
我想东西真的有够慢

天秤座的我
总是口是心非，自我矛盾
总是说...
不要不要，但心里应该是说...我要
我都不清楚我自己，究竟现在我是要还是不要
好矛盾的心情

天秤座的我
总是害羞，胆小
又怕是场误会
这样的我永远不会成功
永远只能背着失败的名份

天秤座的我
跟那一个星座最合呢？
这个我知道就好嘛~

压力

考试快到了...
压力越来越大...
每晚都睡得不怎么好...
搞得我整天都喊累！！
不懂是不是压力太大...
开始脱发...但又看不出有秃头的现象...
还是我头发太厚了...
是时候剪头发了...
我试图解决压力的问题...
吃？玩？睡？
也许吧...

还有种种无形的压力...
包括了...对了就是这个...
请求你们两位...不要在给我看到希望可以吗？
把我捧上天堂...
然后再将我踢下地狱...
有可能和没可能的东西我分得很清楚...



红魔迷~你们也感受到压力吗？~~~

不可能

拜托别再说是了...
这简直就是痴人说梦话...
不可能！！不可能！！
如果是真的话...要我干嘛都可以...
就算家里一幅镜子都没有，我也会撒泡尿照下自己的样子...
癞蛤蟆想吃天鹅肉？美女与野兽真人版？
不想再给人笑，就别发梦...
活在现实当中吧！赖文良！！
这都是纯粹巧合...这些东西永远不会发生在我身上好吗？
是永远！！！
你们两个就别再说是真的了...
至于是哪两个人...他们自己懂就好啦...

考试要到了...
不再想太多...

控制

我也是时候控制下我的脾性了...
刚刚把门大力一甩锁头都坏了...
如果你们不惹我，我也不会发脾气...
一个人的忍耐是有限的...
当我的忍耐到极限是真的很恐怖...
刚刚得我真的很不一样...
我根本就像睡火山...
一旦爆发...我也不懂我在干嘛...
我会学会控制...
为了你...我会学习控制...微笑...

还有就是...你们应该也有想过如果自己在无意中离开了这个世界...
会怎样对吧？感觉应该很妙吧？
离开这个笨世界...少很多烦恼...有时候真的有这个冲动的念头...
离开后，会有人挂念我吗？应该没有吧...哈哈~

意外的东西很难预料的...

感觉

最近我经常感到有股怪怪的感觉...
开心？伤心？都不是...
就是一种说不出的感觉...
是考试要到了，压力的感觉吗？
还是...
呃...这些东西还是不方便透漏吧...
因为还是很不肯定...
不懂吧...还是自己整天想太多了...
才有种怪感觉吧...

还有...
有时我耳朵红不代表我害羞...
其实是热而已...
这都是千真万确...
有时耳朵红我也不想的嘛...
我天生就是这样啊...




今晚你想念的人是不是我...

complicated

Everyone confirm will make this type of mistake...
That is make ur ownself life become more complicated...
Until u gone crazy?...@@
My life is getting more complicated...
I have to divide myself to 3 parts...
I'm abit gone psycho...T.T
I'm gonna stop this type of stupid complicated relationship...
Is really really damn annoying.....
And if I draw out my complicated relationship in a mind map...
I guess is quite "amazing"...==lll
I just want to be normal person...
Just leave me alone...
I'm happy to be a single at the moment...
I'm happy that I can spend all my money on the things I like...
I'm happy to be nobody~

exam tmr...dead....

Happy!!~

Its been so long...
Really long time no see u guys ady...
JT,chee siang,chi hong and xiao pat...thx to u guys...
Thanks for everything...
Although the seat for today movies is abit cacat-ed...
I'm still happy to hang out with u guys...
Not bad mah sit the second most front row...
Got abit "3-D" effect~haha~
And also enjoy sushi king~~=P
Tommorow again go shopping but is with family~hehe~
Looks like i dun k my exam...hehe~

Special thanks to markie and xiao pat for acc me to gym~~~
But seriously my abs is pain @@lll~


I think I cant even differentiate between fake and real things...
Its been so fake but mr. zy keep say is real...
Maybe is just co-incidence...
But he just keep say is real...@@
Its totally impossible man...
If is real...i will chop down my head...
Confuse bout wad am I talking huh??
Yeah...my ownself also blur...hehe...
But in this world...only 5 person include me know wad is going on =P



Cant wait my arrival of my RDR and Lupin album~~~~

Because of u....

Because of you...I smile everyday
Because of you...I have found my motivation
Because of you...I might gone crazy
Because of you...I went on diet
Because of you...I can do anything without think bout myself
Because of you...history of my life is changing
Because of you...my life is full of colour
Because you...cant replace with anything in this world
Am I fallen for you?
possible?maybe?it depends...

Announcement~

I'm kidda busy for the past few weeks...
I'm sad to announce something...
that is i'll temporary stop blogging...
Maybe after few months i'll start blogging again...
Or maybe this is my last post of this year or last of my life???...
lol~just kidding...might be stop blogging only...not that i'm going to die...haha
All right,hope that i'll continue to write blog again...lol

Problem....

Firstly...i apology for not update for long time...
due to my lazy-ness...haha
I try to update bout my cny as soon as possible...
Is reli an unlucky cny...haiz...
Somemore now facing back another problem...
INSOMNIA!!!!stupid...
cant sleep well and sometimes even nightmare...TT
Scary......
What to do if i having insomnia??...
Is it i too over excited??...
But i din have anything to excite nia...
Or anything to worry,to think...
If any1 have the ways to cure me...
Pls help me....haha....
Btw...trial is coming soon...
so what to do...my result is sucks....lol....

Excited?

Hmph...
Tomorrow going back to the HOT HOT melacca...
Just finish packing my stuff...
My PS2...shirt...blah blah blah...
And my lovely laptop...lol
Haiz...during the first day of cny...
I will become back a shy shy boy ed...
Those cousin 1 year only meet once...
How i gonna interact with them...sei ler...
Dun no where to hide myself...
Becoming an ostrich ler...
Shit...dun k la...die thn die la...

Btw...after cny...i have a hell-style training...=P
Retake my piano...and learn another new musical instrument..violin...

Last but not least...wish everyone happy chinese new year
and happy valentine day o~~



P/S:祝你幸福...

Over...

Oh yeah~
Exam is finally over...
and...
EVERYTHING is over...
nothing is left to think bout it...
I'm gonna enjoy my cny...
No more worries XD
But...
Dunno why...I have not recover from my sick...TT
Its have been 1 week ady...
Wad the heck is going on man...==lll
haiz...

I'm going back to my dad hometown on saturday...
At melacca...to celebrate my cny...
Mm...i think i will recover when see ang pau coming in to my pocket =P
Wish every1 have fun on this Cny...
Happy CNY and Happy Valentine day for those lovely couples...haha

Recover...

Feeling unwell for few days already...
Wed till now...
Fever,cough,flu...etc...
Suffer like shit...
Sick during exam time...haiz...
My chem and p.math paper is gone...
100% sure failed...TT
Looking forward to other papers...

Cny is coming as well as valentine day...lol
But still din have the feeling of cny...
Dunno y...mm...
Hope I'll recover from my sickness be4 cny bah...
.........




现在听着的歌:取消资格--->陈小春

'Love' and 'Like'

If you're infront of the person you 'love'
Your heart beats faster
But if you're infront of the person you 'like'
You will get happy

If you're infront of the person you 'love'
Winter seems like spring
But if you're infront of the person you 'like'
Winter is just a beautiful winter

If you look into the eyes of the one you 'love'
You blush
But if you look into the eyes of the one you 'like'
You will only smile

If you're infront of the person you 'love'
You cant say anything on your mind
But if you're infront of the person you 'like'
You can speak anything

If you're infront of the person you 'love'
You tend to get shy
But if you're infront of the person you 'like'
You can show your ownself

You cant look straight into the eyes of the one you 'love'
But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you 'like'

When the one you 'love' is crying
You will cry with her/him
But when the one you 'like' is crying
You will end up comforting her/him

The feeling of 'love' starts from the eyes
Moreover the feeling of 'like' is starts from the ears

So if you stop liking a person you used to 'like'
All you need to do is cover your ears
But if you try to close your eyes
'Love' will turns into a teardrop and remain in your heart forever

Coming soon....

Coming ady...
Exam is coming TT...
Under pressure again...
I din prepare for every subject yet...
not even 1...
cham liao...
Failed again le...
Everytime study..memorize..thn..after few min...
I totally forget everything...TT
Really nid to god bless me le this time...
At least dun failed la...
pass enuf ler...i not greedy...

Wan to exam liao...but i still going out...hehe...
This saturday having a gathering...primary school gathering...XD
Having Bbq party...reli have a long period din saw them ler...
6 year ++ le...all dai gor zai dai gor lui le...
not the "baby" anymore le...

After the party i will update my blog...
But after that i might stop for a while...
I reli very very very extreme tired......
Facing many many problem....haiz...
Dun think too much la...WL...

Sorry...

Sorry...I sincerely apology to my readers...

For the past few weeks i have been posting all those "emo" post...

Actually i'm really ok...i'm fine...

I just post it for fun...>.<

"U" is not presence in the real world...

If my post affect ur feeling or mood...

Once again I apology to you...

The purpose i named my blog as vayne's wonderland...

Is to bring my happiness to u all like disneyland ~XD~...

Bring you all to my wonderland...

But seems I failed >.<

Like wad my fren...dhina and adrian said...

My blog should named it as:

Vayne's sorrow-land...>.<

At last...exam is coming...pressure start again...

Cant sleep well again...maybe i think too much >.<

Btw,I promise u all Vayne's wonderland will bring happiness to all of u...

And specially to dhina...

Dun too worry me when i look sad at college...

I'm not sad...just dunno how to express my feeling on my face...

I DUNNO HOW TO SMILE >.<

Where Are You

Where did "U" go?

I miss "U" so

Seems like it's been forever

That "U" have been gone

Some days I feel like shit

Some days I wanna quit

And just to be normal for abit...just a little bit

I dont understand why "U" have to always be gone

I get along but the trips always feel so long

And,I find myself try to stay by phone

Cause your voice always helps me when I feel alone

But I feel like an idiot,working my day around the call

When I pick up I dont have much say

So,I want "U" to know it's a little fucked up

That I'm stuck here waiting....at times debating

Telling "U" that I've had it with "U" and your career

Now i find myself just filling my time

Anything to keep the thought of "U" from my mind

I'm doing fine...I plan to keep it that way

"U" can call me if "U" find "U" have something to say to me

I want "U" to know

THat I'm stuck here waiting for "U"

No longer debating

Tired of sitting and hating and making these excuses,

For while "U"re not around and feeling so useless

It seems one thing has been true all along

"U" dont really know what "U" got tll it's really gone...

The Furthest Distance In The World

The furthest distance in the world

Is not between life and death,hell and heaven

But when I stand infront of "U"

Yet "U" dont know that

I love "U"

The furthest distance in the world

Is not when I stand infront of "U"

Is yet "U" cant see my love

But when undoubtedly knowing the love from both

Yet cannot

Be together

The furthest distance in the world

Is not being apart while being in love

But when plainly cannot resist the yearning

Yet pretending

"U" have never been in my heart

Crowd,watching the love couple come together

And reveal a sweet smile

Heart is a sad and dreary

Happiness at her smile is what I want

Reality was too tired

I cant breath

Love,

Is a test we must go through

Love,

Is not doomed

Love,

The no-win,only right or wrong

Met You

Saw "U" once again...

Your shadow far apart...

Do "U" know?

I did tell myself,I will forget "U" the day after...

I did remind myself,I dont miss "U" anymore...

Then I thought I really did,but till now......

I found that I'm a fool,I was deceiving myself...

"U" were never out of my life...

Even a day,an hour,a minute or even one second...

But conceal from my deepest heart...

Miss "U"

Remember "U"

Never even less than yesterday...

Do "U" know?

While I saw "U",I shunted...

Escape from "U"

No why but felt my heart was bleeding...

Perhaps afraid to face "U"?

Perhaps afraid that I couldnt speak when meet "U"

I know

"U" are always being who "U" are...

"U" are not the one I meet before...

And the one I miss not the one I met...

The yesterday of "U" will only alive in my deepest heart...

"U" is not a human being...

缘

第一次是巧合...

第二次是偶然...

第三次就是命中注定吗?

这就是我们所谓的缘分吗?

你爱的人...会离开你...

爱你的人...会被你抛弃...

真正遇到彼此相爱的人时却注定无缘...

感情就是这么会捉弄缘分...

无数辗转反辄的夜晚令人烦闷...

一股莫名的伤感也就随之而来...

那回忆的侧脸被无情的定格在这里...

我的回忆是伤感么...

睡意虽浓...

可是脑子里却不断浮现你回忆的侧脸...

回忆过去...痛苦的相思....永远都会忘不了...

也许是我想太多...

真的想太多...

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Welcome to 2010~R.I.P 2009~

At first wish everyone happy new year~

Nothing special bout my celebration on new year eve...juz ate steamboat with my family and watch countdown concert~

Today i having my movies together with jia tern and xiao pat...

At morning i meet up with jason,his lao po and jia tern at old town...

Then chrismen join us...the most late de of coz that xiao pat...==

Always the most late...

Jason and chrismen doesnt wan to join us for movie...

So, jia tern, pat and me went to pavillion to have our lunch and wait for tk...at wong kok...

Be4 going in to cinema we buy starbuck and put it inside bag to bring in...lol

SS~Lol~

Nice~my chocolate cream chip...without chocolate chip....==

Avatar is nice~XD~much more nicer thn storm warriors 2....

And i did have fun with u guys...

Especially the chui sui part...haha

Monday start back my college life ady...

Feel a bit weird...dunno y...hehe

Anyway...is nice to see u all again...

Let's hardwork together....

and pay more attention ~

But i noe I wont pay more attention to teacher...==

Dun late for the first class o~