Happy?or Sad?....

Should i be happy or sad?...i also dunno wat mood am i having now...

Today...

My applied math paper had return to me...

My result is...23/25...quite good...

But still have to add up with my pure math...

25/50...is my pure math result....sucks...

Total=(23x2)+25=71...

OMFG....71 only...haizzzz...

This is the first time i get an "B" grade for my math...

I use to get an "A" grade for math for the past 18 yrs...

4 more marks then i will get an A....

What i can said is study hard on pure math...haizzzz....

Tomorrow is the last day of july...

Hope august will be good for me...

This july...is very unlucky for me...

everything bad happens on me...

When reach august...

That means my bday is getting nearer and nearer...

Hope will have some suprise bah...

But i also din expect have any BIG BIG suprise...

Every year bday,i used to be alone...mmm...

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finally

Finally...finally...my first test end today...last subject is physic...

Erm...sadly today receive some sad news...firstly,the chance to score A's in math become more difficult...coz today my pure math lecture give us the answer for the paper...got some answer not same=_=...

i dun expect my applied can get full marks...max is 45 only...for a dumb-dumb like me where can take 45marks out of 50 marks...haizzz...

This could be the first time i did not get an A's on my math for 18years...cham lo...i really getting worse...may be due to some problem occur on my life...love?perhaps...lol

tomorrow will be a busy day...and also a day that can spend lots of money...=_=...

Around 7am zhoy will leave his house and fetch will of us,when the time reach my house i think is bout 7.30am gua...(hope so,coz scare he cant wake up)...

the first destination will be my ex-secondary school...smk st.gab...y i still going back?...coz there got prefect gathering...lol..."give face"them only...lolxd...

Second destination...smk cochrane...once is the school i want to get in...but now is HELP college...may be is because of someone?...we are going for the hari keusahawaan at there...i think is similar to open day??...the purpose we go there is for the cube competition...lol...

I think it should say help hsk bah...to make sure the first place is our buddy...

Then later on we will go "cheong k" at green box...to celebrate bday for shit wong and kar foo...dunno tomorrow wat time will i go back to home leh...hope not so late...

At last wish KF happy bday lo~although i dunno wat to buy for u...BUT i will not buy anything from ur wishlist...XD...

Sleeping time...zzz...is time to relax...Test finished!!!

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Darn,i failed my chemistry on my first test at tarc...juz get 37marks...3 marks to pass...

Actually i din have enuf time to do all the calculation part,so lost lot of marks...but this thing cant blame to anyone except me...i'm the one to be blame...

But i will try harder again to score well...

Tomorrow got 2 test...GP(part 2) and pure math...

haizzz...i'm worrying for my pure math...dunno y?...scare to get an ungraded score again....

Hope lady luck will be on my side...

But i still have to put effort...

Wait for my good news...or may be bad news...

i'm still struggle in my mine with 'you'...

Hope u will choose me but not my senior...

I'm Back...

I will not give up so easily...

To my rivalsss or one of my senior,dun ever think to compete a girl with me...

U will never win over me unless i give up...

I want to announce that I'M BACK...

I will continue to complete my songs to that girl...

To my senior,although u r handsome than me...and u know guitar...

But i master in piano...dun u dare to challenge me...

And i'm clever than u...

Both of u in the same school...so what...

Both of u can see each other in a day...so what...

WHO CARES!!!!!!

Same school not equal to she will in love with u....

I knew her longer than u...i know her well...

I WILL CHALLENGE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

最近的我...真的...

最近的我...真的...很不开心...

虽然今天我妈买了件新衣给我...

而且是我最喜欢的红色衣服...

但,不知为何...心里有很多道伤痕都不会复原...

最近,我的生活真的不是很快乐...

相信大部分是来自压力...

而且全都是我不懂得如何去解决...

搞到自己像有自闭的少年...

今天是我有史以来话最少的一次...

我说的全都是单字...“哦”,“啊”,“呃"...

我仿佛是个哑巴...

明明能说话...

却把自己的双唇粘得紧紧...

不过我相信我自己...

不会自暴自弃...

不会去把自己灌醉...会伤身...

更不会去自杀...这样太傻了...

最多把自己关在房间思过...

或找个无人的地方...然后大喊...

压力真的很可怕...

有时我真的会想去些小城市度过我的一生...

在这儿,压力多到仿佛你在大西洋的海底...

被几亿屯的水压着...

如果你们有什么解决烦恼或压力的方法...

请留言...叫我如何去面对这一切...

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此时此刻的我...终于...

此时此刻的我...终于...后悔了...

为何我不努力的念书...

近期的考试...虽然目前只考了两科...

但,我有种不祥的感觉...

感觉上会不及格...或刚刚好及格...

我没跟任何人分享这一切...

平时我已用傻笑地带过一切...

每天带着面具上学...

真的很苦...

在家的我笑也不笑...

一天说的话也不超过十句...

真的很想撕开我这副面具...

此时此刻的我...终于...学会了放弃"你"...

隔了这么多年...我还是不敢面对你...

这些年来,其实已经留下伤口...

没有你的世界,我不懂快乐有多么容易...

我真的想和你在一起,却在你的未来缺席...

我常和自己说...

如果她是属于你的...无论怎样她仍然是属于你的...

如果她不属于你的...无论怎样都好,她的呵护永远都不是你的...

此时此刻的我...终于...不想孤独一个人...

一个将满十八的少年...难免会这样想...

身边的朋友...慢慢开始结识他们的另一半...

不禁让我羡慕...

真想尝尝恋爱的感觉...

谈恋爱是什么感觉？？？...

喝苦茶喝到蜜糖的味道？？...

还是被老师骂都会笑？？...

拥有爱情的滋润,读书时是否会努力点？？...

此时此刻的我...终于...感觉到无形却巨大的压力...

又是课业的问题...

但这次也包括了我教钢琴的事...

我真的不会排好我的时间...

每天教完课...回到来还要温习,且还要改他们的作业...

我快要被逼疯了...

此时此刻的我...终于...感到疲惫了...

不写了...

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My first test at Tarc...

Yesterday(wed),i have my first test at tarc...that is GP paper...just the part 1 of the test...next week still gonna continue it...haizz...

This first part of the test is average for me...i think i can manage to pass it...gua...

Today i have my 2nd test...that is chemistry....damn it....when i enter the lecture hall cold like i'm inside a freezer...and when i receive the paper...damn hard(for me larr,coz i din study...)...plus the teacher infront of us....PRESSURE!!!!!....then i when i finished the test,pass it up...then check with my note...thn i realise that i do many mistakes....cham lor....sure failed lor....

Actually not i dun wan to study...but at night time i really very(x infinity)tired ored...everyday after school need to go teach piano...some more come back still need to mark their theory homework....+ need to practise piano for an hour...i gonna crazy...after all this stuff i ored half dead...

Now i'm really consider to stop my piano...and concentrate on my studies...should i stop?????....(give some idea...pls...)

Last thing...if anyone of my friends wanna go see Harry Potter and the half-blood prince pls inform me....i wan go^^...

Exam is coming soon...

Yerrrrrrr...Already 2 months i have became a tarcian...time past through very fast...and exam is around the corner...

The first test is on next wednesday...GP...hope i can score well...

I most care subject is physic...ughhhh....physic is tough for me...

Math???easy job larr...close one eye also can score at least 70++...this time without sheelan,zell or chee siang to compete with me....wakakaka...but i dun not what my new classmate standard are...

On the other hand,i try to figure it out why i cant communicate well with my new classmates???...It is MY problem or what???...when i just enter the class i felt like dun wan to open my "gold mouth"...Let It Be....or i'm coward...

When i sat inside the class...some of them will ask me..."y u look so boring or unhappy?"....ermm...actually i also dun no y...LOL...may be they always speak "chicken intestine"(english) gua...or may be is just my style..."COOL"..."SHY"...Could anyone tell me how to change my style...

...i try to update my blog asap la...now need to study liao la...

Eason Chan @ TARC

On tuesday,i have the album "H3M" of eason chan...then get 2 free ticket to his live band at TARC...at first i invite KF...but he accept then say dun wan go later....WTF...

Luckly on friday afternoon,after have lunch with zy,jason and david...then go home...saw zell online...he juz back from UTM...then i invite him ...or not the ticket will be wasted...

Around 6pm,zy drove his brother proton saga but not his kancil...come to fetch me...but then few minutes later,when come to MRR2...WTF,traffic jam...of coz la wat time o...all ppl after work leh...

Around 6.30pm,we reach to TARC~~my college...come second time in a day...i and zell meet up with jason at canteen...then we go to sport complex there...only 6.30 already quite a number of ppl there...

Too bore to stand at there,so 3 of us(me,jason and zell)keep on taking pic...here r some...

zell and jason....

"talk to my hand"...

Zell with his lovely camera...

"pls use this to wash hand!!!"

long queue...

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Royce and bernard...recording their program(my astro 至尊流行榜）...

Around 810pm...at last we can go in the sport complex!!!...waiting for one hour plus...

luckly we come earlier...we stand at the 3rd row...infront in the VIP seat...Until 8.35pm,the hall is full of eason fans...

Emcee...

Eason chan~~~

He sang 3 songs on the night,first is 於心有愧,second is沙龙,and finally is allegro,opus 3.3 am...

but then a fans request him to sing one more song...he accept and he sing the chorus part of 七百年后...^^

He come down from the stage to shakehand with fans...

Around 10 his autograph session started...but i didnt go for it coz too many ppl...so we go back before the jam started...all body pain after this....damn it...especially my leg...

he is the second star singer i saw...first is jolin at time square but that time is damn far...but this time more nearer...

Hope eason can have more nice songs to bring to us...Eason 加油...

"The First Time"

One day to go...and that is my "first time"going for a live band...

That is Eason Chan's live band at tarc...start at 8.30pm at tarc...

Dun no wat is the feeling being at the crowded place...

Hope i can capture some nice picture....to post on the blog...

however,tomorrow got class until 11am,actually is 10.30am...coz of all the teacher have meeting...

but feel pity for jason...coz he still got chemistry practical class until 3pm...

2 class i gonna attend tomorrow both is biology...lecture and practical...

I like bio practical^^....

Tired~~

Pic of the day...

This is my picture of the day...quite cute right???...My group made this thing during chemistry tutorial class...actually teacher call us to do the shape for the covalent molecules...such as CO2 is shape of linear(2 bond pair)...

can anyone name some example of covalent molecules for this structure...and i name this shape as "poodle" shape...lolz...

And i wanna to apologize to my physic teacher...i will try to do the tutorial workbook before the class...the whole class make u angry early in the morning...once again sorry...sorry...

Countdown:3 days more...Eason chan at tarc...