Afraid

When I was young, ghost, vampire etc are the most eerie stuff I'm afraid on...
Especially my fren like to bring me for supernatural type of ghost movie....
When growing up eventually I found out there are more scarier stuff out there....
which is human.....and the feeling of losing someone special
I'll never knew what actually human are thinking....
What is on their mind?
Acting on how to please ur heart and kick u away when not needed?
And saying that you r appreciate it when you leaving...
I have no idea wtf are happening...

Is sacrifice needed for person you like?
I have no more idea...It seems doesn't works well for me
Sacrifice my sleeping time,  my health..
Maybe people will leave u when you doesn't hv these: money, car, ur look...

I'm tired...

别怪她。。。

也许我一直以来对你来说都像个“避孕套”
用完就扔。。。
你的Presentation slides, 你的 assignment，有部分都是我在做。。。
做到三更半夜，睡眠时间也只有区区3个小时。。。
与其说被利用，
不如说是我心甘情愿要帮忙。。。
我真的没有怪你。。。
帮你的这段日子真的开心过。。。
全部东西有了开始就会有结尾。。。
时间到了，你也找到了你的另外一半了。。。
我会替你开心和祝福你们。。。
此时，脑里只有一首歌。。。陈小春的“我爱的人 ”

Can anyone teach me how to stick back all these pieces...:(

I want to say sorry to everyone ( my friends and family), you have been talking to body but not my soul. My shell is smiling but my inner child has been locked up and crying...

Message to that guy:
Please be faithful to her and show your commitment to her, don't make her cry...
I doesn't wants to see her sad, crying or anything happened to her...
Bring her to places that she wants to go, remember there are some foods she cannot consume but she like to eat, she had a lot of allergic...
Whenever she needs you, must be by her side, spend more time with her...
Make her happy and be a good bf for her, don't flirt anyone else except her....
Treat her like sweetheart. :'')

My last word to YOU:
I will always remember you, thank you for everything...
I will remember our last meals, last interaction, last seen, last phone calls...
We might not meet anymore...
So, I wish you all the best on your studies , your times with him...
...and, make sure you are happy and be blessed....


Roses are red, 
Violets are blue,
Now that she's gone,
My heart has sank.

半夜

半夜睡不着的我好心烦。。。
无论是在学业上,健康还是感情都一塌糊涂。。。
学业上,我的FYP怎么做都感觉怪怪地。。。
健康上,我的细胞开始自己打自己。。。
我不知道这会不会带来生命的危机。。。
感情更死。。。
你是忙着逃避我吗? 是因为你有了新欢?
我看见你上载的你和他的照片。。。
不需要我的帮忙就不找我了吗?

I voted for Girls' Generation's "I Got a Boy" to win Video of the Year a...

Happy birthday to me =)

Although doesn't have any celebration but I'm happy :)
With your personal inbox msg, i can felt my cheekbone arise
although end up asking help for ur fyp :/
I just love the way you called me oppa :3
돼지! thanks a lot

1st confession

23/9/2013
My very so called "special" day where I had my 1st confession towards a girl in my 22 years of living.
But...unfortunately....I'm sure that it not success but, It doesn't consider as a failure becoz she actually didn't reject me straight away.
She just said: Are you serious? *I should have say yes*, and also said my sentences are just too formal and she eventually changed the topics. =S
Hopefully there will be no awkward between us? and I will not giving up =)

Now i'm having mixed feelings, should I be happy that she didn't actually say no or should I be sad becoz she didn't accept me as what I had expected.

cr: Thanks to frens that help me the build my 1st confession sentence.

你

最近你的态度有点反复不定，信息读了却不回复...
是否你发现了什么？ 还是你那天被我的举动吓坏了...
我知道我只能在你身旁当你的守护精灵...
无可否认，我对你心动了
心动了就是，
你会去关注与他有关的所有信息...
她的笑容，她的模样，她的一举一动，她的一言一语，她的喜好，她的生活，她所在的城市...
你会期待她的出现...
等待她的问候...
盼望她的关怀...
有了这些，自信多了一点...
快乐多了一点...


无论如何，
看你是一种享受，
爱你是一种幸福，
念你是一种习惯，
想你是一种快乐，
等你是一种考验...

Life is irreversible

Life is particular important, it can't be turn back for a 2nd chance
It's not like movie where you can NG or Microsoft programme where you can undo it..
it is irreversible and please appreciate it..
commit suicide is somehow is seems stupid for my opinion ( no offense to the person who committed )
There is nothing you cannot solve...
Die will solve the problem?  NO!!!!
You have to make your life fantastic and fight till the end when given such opportunity

I'm still stunned with the news and still can't accept the fact....
You'll be just fine, pray for you...
If anything needed I'll help you...

别等不该等的人

爱的时候，让他自由；不爱的时候，让爱自由...
既在乎曾经拥有,也在乎天长地久...
宁愿高傲单身，也不委屈自己...
别等不该等的人，别伤不该伤的心...
有时候，爱也是种伤害...
残忍的人，选择伤害别人...
善良的人，选择伤害自己...
暗恋是最好的哑剧，说出来的话可能就会变成悲剧...
哭泣，并不代表我屈服...
退一步，并不象征我认输...
放手，并不代表我放弃...
正如我微笑，并不意味着我快乐...
只有放弃，没有忘记...
看的淡一点，伤的就会少一点，时间过了，爱情淡了，也就散了...
我笑时，全世界都跟着我笑...
我哭时，全世界只有我一个人在哭...
孤独，不一定不快乐...
得到，不一定能长久...
失去，不一定不再拥有...
可能因为某个理由而伤心难过...
但，却能找个理由让自己快乐...
爱上一个人的时候，总会有点害怕...
怕得到她，怕失去她...
不用等待的人，是幸福的...
我们真的要过了很久很久,才能够明白,自己真正怀念的,到底是怎样的人,怎样的事...
什么事情都会习惯的...
因为习惯就好...
爱与被爱，不一定成正比...
在对的时间，遇见对的人，是一种幸福...
在对的时间，遇见错的人，是一种悲伤...
在错的时间，遇见对的人，是一声叹息...
在错的时间，遇见错的人，是一种无奈...
不要轻言放弃,否则对不起自己...

What so ever...

From now on, I'm not going to get involve in all of you all's conflict business.
Going to sit down and watch your "movie"
I'm just going to be myself and give my best at my final year project.
For god sake....you guys just a bunch of small kids...
Just play around yourself k? Don't ever cross the limit of mine and other innocent ppl...that's it!
p/s: I'm not that despo to win...and if u want to cease the communication with me. ya go ahead I would care.

#whatsoever

坚强

知道或不知道都是死路一条。。。
平时多坚强的人都会有懦弱的时候。。。
虽然你越来越敷衍我，但我还是会继续的尝试。。。
我告诉我自己不要放弃！！！
在这段时间我要把我自己提升下。。。

曾经

曾经，代表着已过去了。。。

全部曾发生的事情，我只能每晚静静地回忆着，

翻查我们的简讯，有时不禁笑了。。。

曾经的诺言，还有效吗？

曾经的过去，你还记得吗？

曾经送过你的礼物，你还在收着吗？

曾经只属于我们的空间，话题，你是否记得？

还记得我们从白天聊到晚上直到睡觉，明天醒来再继续吗？

我一直不换手机铃声，是因为这首歌是我们当时的最爱。。。

在做工时你一直哼着。。。

我还记得第一次的“约会”，你穿的小洋装。。。

真的有一股冲动想牵起你的手。。。

我曾经以为当时的暧昧会把我们变成另一个阶段。。。

可惜。。。我也不懂发生了什么事。。。

你突然仿佛把我当成透明人。。。

每天就只会避我。。。

我只能看着你的背影，听着你跟别人的谈话，看着你的笑容。。。

是我想太多？还是真的想逃避。。。
你是介意你的年龄大过我吗？
我希望有个合理的理由。。。 
我已经习惯了你的存在，你的一切。。。。

不管你对我怎样，我都会继续爱你，继续等你。。。 
我会守候和等待着你
当你需要我时，我就会出现。。。

Double face

From time to time, the more I get mixed with my classmates,  I knew them more...
in other words,  I discovered what kind of human they are...
bad? sometimes
good? depends on their feelings. ..or depends on on your look, whether u are handsome/pretty or ugly.
They might treated you like close friends but behind you they might plotting something. ..or backstabbing
Well! I don't really want to care bout it
Do what I suppose to do

Believe!

Believe it and I did it
Thanks my pal for some sort of meditation
somehow I felt it return to normal state (maybe? )
Continue to believe! !

Everything starts from something

Cheers!~

考试前

过了这学期就剩一年了,时间过真快...
这学期成绩超烂,大考前还来场大病
怎样考啦!!!
要专注!!!把无谓的垃圾暂时丢在一旁!!
想太多只能让自己难受!火大!

心如刀割

期待与希望往往都是假的。。。
事实就是如此的残忍。。。
心。。。
早已累了。。。
眼。。。
早已泪了。。。
精神。。。
崩溃了。。。

Tiring

Tiring life,
All about studies non stop,
Non stop reports, exams, without entertainment...
Tiring  weather,
Everything was so tiring...
I'm not enjoying it...
I was so fed up with myself...



Better to not expect anything. Courage turns coward...

"Dream" come true

Dreams does come true, just depends on what type of dreams...
Either is nightmare or a sweet dreams that we always hopes for...
The dream was perfectly presented...
Sorry for causing the unwanted troubles for last 2 months...
I doesn't blame anyone for all these, only myself was to be blamed...
Blamed myself for being useless, not being intelligent as some ppl, low "quality" on everything...
Well, am I that shit? -.-

Felt ever so tired for the first time...
Whole body doesn't wish to moved and heart was weak...
Exhausted by 6-7 hours of lab? Affected by the weather?


Good luck and Good bye...